All Things Must Pass

Hi Pals,

I am now sitting still with the full anxious face. wondering why today has been being so tricky upon me. and guess what, I use british still to let you know that it is not the end yet. not about I will end up the day with a nice sleeping beauty posture and done the day.

remember my last posting on 5^th September. it maybe the last positive body, mind and soul was writing such a texts on the blog. at the day after the day, I realized and slapped of the biggest mistake I ever made. I make a dog’s food on my company house ceremony.

i know it’s a total balls up I make on them. I give up. can not retrieve any good position as I ever feel before. I feel aware lost of confirmation. maybe the day the world psycho was at hand underneath the sleep blanket of mine.

I started sleep on the floor, even couldn’t touch my food at all for three days.. my family support me. I even am getting closer to everyone in my family also as in my broading house.

every single moment has its own goodness and badness. yeah, it is..

but I just never be the same as the old me.. I become paranoid.

this day, this Thursday I got a miraculous quote when I was surfing on my flixster. got a new movie slide to watch and it’s true enough.

“The Matter is NOT About What You DID, but WHAT YOU DIDN’T” –THE IDLES –

it freeze me enough. yes. I shouldn’t be afraid to do something. I always become so shy and so absolute that everyone could think the same thought as me. but it’s false and I am learning so much from the incident.

it’s been a nail on my foot this two months. I feel torture psychologically. I just can’t stop praying for a miracle and have been thinking about flee someday.

sometimes in this life. no matter what we do, it just can’t change even the small part, even it’s small as a sand.

but unknowingly. our character is change greatly.

we have to through it folks, face the problem no matter what.

I will survive till the end too.

I don’t wanna be the quitters that never win.

Falling makes me know what is Rising

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I will also fight again for tomorrow. I will try face even the very worst possibilities could come after me makes me like chop chop the life and feel being torture.

I have to stand up all. feeling the pain until you know that you can’t even lift your last finger and realized you are helpless.

but thank you there’s a listener.

and there’s another people to compare with.

the last words for today is

“FAITH IT, till you DO IT.”