All Things Must Pass

Hi Pals,

I am now sitting still with the full anxious face. wondering why today has been being so tricky upon me. and guess what, I use british still to let you know that it is not the end yet. not about I will end up the day with a nice sleeping beauty posture and done the day.

remember my last posting on 5^th September. it maybe the last positive body, mind and soul was writing such a texts on the blog. at the day after the day, I realized and slapped of the biggest mistake I ever made. I make a dog’s food on my company house ceremony.

i know it’s a total balls up I make on them. I give up. can not retrieve any good position as I ever feel before. I feel aware lost of confirmation. maybe the day the world psycho was at hand underneath the sleep blanket of mine.

I started sleep on the floor, even couldn’t touch my food at all for three days.. my family support me. I even am getting closer to everyone in my family also as in my broading house.

every single moment has its own goodness and badness. yeah, it is..

but I just never be the same as the old me.. I become paranoid.

this day, this Thursday I got a miraculous quote when I was surfing on my flixster. got a new movie slide to watch and it’s true enough.

“The Matter is NOT About What You DID, but WHAT YOU DIDN’T” –THE IDLES –

it freeze me enough. yes. I shouldn’t be afraid to do something. I always become so shy and so absolute that everyone could think the same thought as me. but it’s false and I am learning so much from the incident.

it’s been a nail on my foot this two months. I feel torture psychologically. I just can’t stop praying for a miracle and have been thinking about flee someday.

sometimes in this life. no matter what we do, it just can’t change even the small part, even it’s small as a sand.

but unknowingly. our character is change greatly.

we have to through it folks, face the problem no matter what.

I will survive till the end too.

I don’t wanna be the quitters that never win.

Falling makes me know what is Rising

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I will also fight again for tomorrow. I will try face even the very worst possibilities could come after me makes me like chop chop the life and feel being torture.

I have to stand up all. feeling the pain until you know that you can’t even lift your last finger and realized you are helpless.

but thank you there’s a listener.

and there’s another people to compare with.

the last words for today is

“FAITH IT, till you DO IT.”

Sympathy Of Egoism

Ladies and gents,

I’m not going to talk about how mortality is increasing nowadays, nor about the toddler who was hit by two vehicles nor the sudden death of the Moto GP Athlete. No, not of them. Im fully understand that death could come any times by any ways. Sound like the way of Love comes, isn’t it?

We just can’t fully overprotect ourselves and BANG!! We save.

Also we can’t just borderless fully borderless and BANG!! We die.

But it will not be a sin if we try our best to live a better life in a careful ways. Take care ourselves and live a healthy life.

Off of it. Right now I’d like to say about sympathy.

For me, humanity chain of relationship is created by needs.

Because I need you to lend me some money then I come closer to you

Because I need you to accompany me to a prom, so that I ask you.

Of course it’s such a clear sentence to show the example. (and you also could change it to the contrary)

But don’t you think about this, something more egoist, something more outside your box, maybe outside anyone’s boxes.

Because :

I need you to smile to me so that I smile to you.

I need my sight to be cleared on the road, so I would like to put aside the toddler who has just hit by the vehicle

Or at least I need my way become clean so that I would like to throw the garbage onto the trash.

Don’t people like for being a king? Then why don’t you be a king today!

but, with yourself as a servant also.

Don’t you know when you treat yourself beautifully, in a special way and luxurious. Maybe others, no no no. it’s absolutely! Others will do the same to you!!

Waw!

Look likes a Politics of Expancy, isn’t it?

King = You

1^st Servant = You

2^nd servant = maybe someone on your family. But it is not YOU!! Wonderful!

3^rd servant = anybody.

You can’t see it clearly? Okay..okay..

Let me give an example of very two gossipers, A and B

One day A is going to prepare a dinner for the class. B is A’s assistance. Then they come up with a conversation

A : the dish is sure so delicious. But it’s so sticky of the chocolate Pie. It’s keeping dirty the side of the plate when I put it on.

B : well we should try to make it any good then for the next plate.

A : Okay then. For the a little dirty plate. May we serve it for Anita (maybe Anita is your friend)

B :Okay good. She never take a serious problem with it.

A : and the other dirty plate for XX ? (this is you!!)

B : no, we should not give it to XX. She always do everything clean and clearly. So it maybe annoy her and it will make a bad impression.

See?

This is what I mean. People will do what you usually do. This is could be called as a sympathy. The reaction of something happened among us.

People nowadays sure lack of sympathy. They think “my is mine, your is yours.”

I can not blame the development of technology nor the ways your parents rise you nor the environment treat you.

But don’t you ever think this life is not about you? It’s about something bigger beyond your imagination.

But if you couldn’t show your sympathy in a normal ways, that you react because your mind, your heart told you so. Because of love.

At least because your state of egoism. Because you feel it will bother you. Because you don’t like to see something mess up.

Try to give your sympathy with love, or at least with egoism.

Or if you are too busy for doing that. At least say “I can see.” And maybe it will improves to “I can hear.” Then “I can help.” Although it will be done with your own way.

But don’t let it be too late to do something.

Make every second of your lives counted.

I’m not a good kind angelic people. But at least I know.

Our life is too xoxo to waste.