Grace of being alive

Ya know, sometimes I found it totally black out. Yeah, the reason why I should be born, why-were-i-born

Everybody should has his own reason to be created by The Creator right?

But now I am looking to the moon thru my rental room windows. Have I been useful for humankinds?

No, no, it’s not about being a hero or something like that. It’s about have I created someone’s happiness with my heart, being pure and live in a total meant.

Actually, all I want is become someone that anyone could count on. Whom the shoulders are needed. The thoughts are heard and the appearance’s seen.

I wanna be a stranger but leave the mark after im gone. It’s okay for being forgotten tho, as long as when im there, I could smile happily with anyone, with heart, with no burden. Being really satisfied with the whole time I may spend with them. It’s a nice thing to help the other stranger and after that being nobody. A traveler. Time after time. Come and go. Satisfied and happy.

I wanna be a symphony for someone’s life. The lamp that they might need when sky reaches the dark. The arrival whom everyone long for.

I know my life may should be alone. But it’s not lonely.

You know, sometimes I always say to myself. You never can be lonely if you are just alone. From the beginning you are alone. Never feel the community, and become-unity with people. But sometimes I ask again to myself. Why I feel so lonely, lonely enough to kill me softly.

Ah, yeah! I yell to myself. It’s not the life I meant to be. I should be mingled. Force myself. And yes it is.. I go to the crowd. Found it sick when I feel lonely in the crowded. It won’t make me any better. Why should I do? Everybody is the stranger. They have a friend beside them to cry with, laugh with, share with. And still, I am here standing. Starred by them. They might think “why is she alone” , “what is she doing?” , “why she sat in the middle chair.” Yes I am… alone.. and the worse is, I am in the crowd.

I don’t wanna be alone. I wanna have anyone to share with, even the one is dangerous, I just want. So I start to speak to the stranger, shared a story while passing by. While watching a movie in the cinema. Made them think “who is she?” , “where is she from?” , and the most I want “it’s a graceful to meet her.”

And after that, I am in my rental room, was looking the moon thru the windows. The difference is, I smile, with my heart. Satisfied with what I do everyday, feeling grace for living in this world.

I am alive. And I have done something great today. What will I do for tomorrow, always have a hope. Life is Good -LG-

I am not empty anymore and being alone is something I looking for

Enjoy every single time with myself. It’s like I am dating myself.

And I have many stranger outside whom I can share with.

I love my life.

I feel I don’t have to pursuit the happiness anymore, because it’s in the palm on my hand.

I don’t have to live in the world anymore. Because the world lives in me, no matter I am alive or death. My appearance could be a beautiful memoriam lingering in the world. At least I think like this.

I wanna this life is total. All out. Pure and full of fight. Minimize all the bad thoughts. Start to think positive about every moment. Even being dumped and single is a funny things. A failure is an art. A success is a jackpot.

The world I looking for…

No life attached or border. All is about what’s within you. Heart. Love to stay or leave.

Because again, life measures in a moment, not a time.

Families, I hope I’ve be the best part you have.

Friends, I hope I’ve become the greatest memory would never be forgotten.

World, I drag you to my hand and heart. Happiness, I summon you to be around my life. Purity I create you to fill this bowl of my heart.

God. Thank you for making me your child.

Now I’d like to sigh, how great this life is…….

Until being vain is a sin.

My life to too much xoxo to waste.