Just kill the time

i feel boring now. i want to post abaout recipes just now. but it's now be done. i just dont have any guts to do it. i wanna take a bath but feel cold. i feel confused of something. it's abt medicine of moms. i couldnt get it without prescription. and truthly i dunno theirs function clearly. i just prepare with MIMS and internet to surf. im not acknowledge yet,, beside im 19 and not a doctor. my mom got the big terible relapse again last night. 4 am. and 7 am. i dunno what to do. and my dad has kick a bucket coz of accident. he's the victim.

i just really dunno my way. i have to replan my future. anyone's future and i got really-really mad when anything goes wrong. i know. waterloo is at hand.

i wanna finish my novel soon. The secret's keeper the title. i just feel my novel will end with a bang in a publishing world. i just love it and believe it. but i am still an amateur,, more than 25 page has been finished. but still need a revision. the setting too fast and dialogue so poor. description not that good. those are i felt when i read my novel from the beginning. i hope i could make it.

i wanna being an author, model and acting in theatre. but my dreams r like stuck in the half middle way. or maybe im not putting my leg at all to get it. i move but i dont.

ommo.. ommo

i just want my novel finish soon and i have more guts to make it up!!!!

aza aza!!!!!!!