hope be healed

it had been over for today. 7th day ceremony for dad's death day had been completed. i should be tired of all preparation. i had booked a snack. waken up i early on the morning and done anything i could. kinda satisfy of all suffer. but i have been (maybe) never believe this surprissing moment come to my family. dad is so wonderful being a doctor, daddy and leader. he had been not gentle of course. so firm. led us as an army (in my opinion) but he had been so welcome and we do have been being in love with daddy.

why?

why?

why?

i wanna stop asking why. bcoz dad wont come back with a thousand why.

i just have been being in blue again on my life. i do know Jesus has been creating a wonderful future. but the ways?? who know.

JC.. i nu u love me and my family so.

lead us day by day so we could undersand your way.

sometime we (esp. me) get mad to U. but let me know i am wrong. U know the beginning and the end. head and bottom. let me throug this JC. i wanna say it but im afraid.

Abba, Father, all things are possible for You. take this cupaway from Me; neverthless, not what i will. but what You will. (mark 14:36)

let us

let me

so step by step we know the plan of Yours for us.

amien.