Just kill the time

i feel boring now. i want to post abaout recipes just now. but it's now be done. i just dont have any guts to do it. i wanna take a bath but feel cold. i feel confused of something. it's abt medicine of moms. i couldnt get it without prescription. and truthly i dunno theirs function clearly. i just prepare with MIMS and internet to surf. im not acknowledge yet,, beside im 19 and not a doctor. my mom got the big terible relapse again last night. 4 am. and 7 am. i dunno what to do. and my dad has kick a bucket coz of accident. he's the victim.

i just really dunno my way. i have to replan my future. anyone's future and i got really-really mad when anything goes wrong. i know. waterloo is at hand.

i wanna finish my novel soon. The secret's keeper the title. i just feel my novel will end with a bang in a publishing world. i just love it and believe it. but i am still an amateur,, more than 25 page has been finished. but still need a revision. the setting too fast and dialogue so poor. description not that good. those are i felt when i read my novel from the beginning. i hope i could make it.

i wanna being an author, model and acting in theatre. but my dreams r like stuck in the half middle way. or maybe im not putting my leg at all to get it. i move but i dont.

ommo.. ommo

i just want my novel finish soon and i have more guts to make it up!!!!

aza aza!!!!!!!

from the beginning until now sheet. winter sonata

its a violin sheet but piano could also play it.

i try to read this, but i could not work it out. i think i have to learn anymore...

hope be healed

it had been over for today. 7th day ceremony for dad's death day had been completed. i should be tired of all preparation. i had booked a snack. waken up i early on the morning and done anything i could. kinda satisfy of all suffer. but i have been (maybe) never believe this surprissing moment come to my family. dad is so wonderful being a doctor, daddy and leader. he had been not gentle of course. so firm. led us as an army (in my opinion) but he had been so welcome and we do have been being in love with daddy.

why?

why?

why?

i wanna stop asking why. bcoz dad wont come back with a thousand why.

i just have been being in blue again on my life. i do know Jesus has been creating a wonderful future. but the ways?? who know.

JC.. i nu u love me and my family so.

lead us day by day so we could undersand your way.

sometime we (esp. me) get mad to U. but let me know i am wrong. U know the beginning and the end. head and bottom. let me throug this JC. i wanna say it but im afraid.

Abba, Father, all things are possible for You. take this cupaway from Me; neverthless, not what i will. but what You will. (mark 14:36)

let us

let me

so step by step we know the plan of Yours for us.

amien.

it's a week. new day but still the same

ga terlalu banyak video yang kesimpen. flashdisknya, seperti yang gw bilang. error. padahal banyak photo-photo keluarga. ini buat papa. video qualitynya masih low. maklumlah. jam segini minggu kemaren. gw lagi duduk di ruang tamu. unggu papa pulang buat makan masakan gw yang gw posting di post bawah. tapi papa malah gak pulang. hari ini mirip banget kayak 22 juli. pagi-pagi gw mesti ke bank. belanja. dan pulang sebelum jam 1. dinginnya sama. kesehatan gw juga sama kayak seminggu sebelumnya. gw pengen tidur. ngelewatin jam 4.45 pm. pas gw bangun ternyata gw cuma mimpi. polisi gak usah datang ke rumah. gw gak perlu ke RS. gw dan kakak serta adik gw gak usah jadi anak yatim. dan mama gw gak usah jadi janda. banyak banget kecelakaan lalu lintas tanggal 22 juli. bukan cuma keluarga gw yang menangis. di tambah lagi kecelakaan pesawat baru-baru ini. kayaknya bulan juli itu bulan duka.

Tumis Touge tahu

Gak ngiler?????? gak normal. hari ini gw masak. lagi niat gak tau kenapa. nih gw share gambarnya

UUUEEENNAAKK. maaAAKNYOS!!

ini dia resepnya:

1. 1/4 wortel import

2. tauge secukupnya

3. 3 siung bawang putih

4. cabe jawa secukupnya

5. penyedap (royko, masako dll.)

6. tahu secukupnya

cara buat.

1. bersihkan wortel, cabe dan tauge terlebih dahulu.

2. asinkan tahu dengan cara di rendam di air asin setengah tinggi tahunya. potong dadu

3. iris atau cincang bawang putih.

4. panaskan minyak dalam wajan. masukkan bawang putih.

5. masukkan wortel, kemudian disusul dengan tauge. tambahkan sedikit air.

6. saat wortel dan tauge sudah lunak. masukkan cabe yang telah diiris dan dadu tahu.

7. masukkan bumbu secukupnya

8. tumis tage tahu siap disantap.

selamat mencoba (kalo mau nyoba).